With all that has been going on, poor baby number 2 has not been officially announced on our blog!
We found out that I was pregnant on August 24th and then were able to see the baby’s heart beat on September 12th. Although, it really didn’t hit until I started to feel “the baby” move until 13 weeks.
It is funny after being pregnant with Thomas it is interesting to compare how similar/different some things have been. With both pregnancies I was very tired at the beginning, which is part of the reason the blog has been so behind. Any time Thomas was asleep I was sleeping with him, napping during the day and going to bed early most nights.
So far with both pregnancies I felt like I had a bad hangover (from what I can remember of being hung over) or just off for the first 11-12 weeks and then with Thomas I quickly began to love food. With this little girl food has continued to be a struggle. Some days I love something and other days I struggle to get anything in.
In the beginning both Mike and I thought she was a girl. I had several girl dreams and then convinced myself the baby was a boy. So when we went in for our 20 week ultrasound we both were excited to find out what she/he was going to be. I have to admit I was a little shocked that she was a girl, even though I didn’t have a real gut feeling one way or the other. The main thing however was that everything looks good on her anatomy scan and hopefully she continues to develop into a healthy little girl, to be born around May 6th, 2012.
Since finding out she was a girl I have been eager to shop and start her bedroom. Little girls dresses, bows, and all the frilly stuff is SO cute! Thomas has been talking more and more about his baby sister and he loves to kiss the belly and he is practicing his big brother skills.
What a change we are all in for in a few months. There are the typical fears that every parent has shared with me about how on earth will you love another child as much as your first. I am fearful of balancing my still emotionally developing needs that Thomas has with a helpless newborn. There are moments when Thomas seems so old, yet he is still so young, so it is going to be interesting.
One day at a time is how we will make it through. There are so many questions and it seems at this point not a lot of answers. With Thomas now sleeping long stretches at night, I am trying to gear up my mind for the exhaustion and sleep deprivation that a newborn entails.
After co sleeping for the last 21 months we are also exploring the idea of Thomas going into a big boy bed. Even writing this brings tears to my eyes, I love him close. I love waking up to my husbands arms wrapped around his son and all the littlest moments that we have shared in the last 21 months.
I am so surprised at just how quickly the time has passed and how all of a sudden it feels like we have blinked and we have an almost 2 year old. What a journey our first son has brought us on and now with our little girl on the way I am sure the lessons are going to continue to be abundant!
I am unsure if in the next few months Thomas will fully wean himself. We are gently encouraging it but I do not believe in taking away nursing if he isn’t ready. At this point, he is still not ready and one day he will be, it might be tomorrow or a few weeks or months from now, but not today. He is still nursing down for nap and bedtime and 1-2 times in the morning. If I am not around he will fall asleep with his Daddy and all is well there. Another thing “I never thought I would do” is nurse 2 children at 1 time, but as her due date approaches and his love for nursing continues it becomes more of a possibility each day. So I am also wrapping my head around that possibility and trying to prepare others for it as well. One day at a time, as long as it works for all of us and we continue to have love and support from our friends and family we will figure out this journey.
More to come on Thomas and our baby girl….